here's to you
having the self-coindence, esteem and the correct mentality to go all out to zui the guy whom you've fallen in love with
either that or ..
we see how many ben dans appear ba ..
you're not a ben dan magnet , but eh , i seriously think that's one route of life that is extremely far from what you want ba, being surrounded by ben dans
this said,
is a boyfriend really necessary?
a boyfriend to love you, protect you, do everything he can for you
i guess not really ba
maybe cos ..
guys quite hard to handle ?
'.'
i think i'm quite easy ar
jus don't do things that harm yourself/that are unhealthy/that screw up your life
and don't insult me too much
and i'm all yours
i think not many guys are as complicated as me ba ..
but eh
i don't think you like me
so .. ya ba
i'll try and keep your life as simple as possible
..
don't dare to love anyone ..
too lazy and tired to start a relationship ..
haiz
..
right now
i wan to meet you ar
you dun seem to care ba
jus throw me to jw or whoever, whatever
assi
you dun wan to do go bk overnight with me anymore ..
even though it's VB, SP ..
things that i'm a little proficient in ..
i'm jus a fucking useless study partner, rite ?
you always say you don't know what are the things to be done
you don't know what work you can give me
not clear about the project requirements
and ..
er ..
we're supposed to get jammed there ?
ask betsy ask su ling ask vincent ?
i can't even ask betsy about your assi , even if i wanted to
but ok lar
i know why you dun allow me to, quite weird
" why xr come and ask me about work huh .. ?
why you dun wan to ask me yourself ? "
so ..
ok ba
can meet you when you have no dinner khaki , i very happy le
..
really very long never see you in the day le ..
not that it matters
not that it means anything
..
i get my life straight first ba ..
ARR
too long never blog
now post such a long post
..
i said i'm easy to handle
but i have a lot of emotional baggage ar ..
i went church yesterday
then .. 2 topics was bought up
and i thought about them a little
1st one is family
the church pastor was talking about
" donate money to church , and God will multiply your money
God wants you to prosper, so that you can have a better life
so that you can live in better houses, drive better cars
and
..
give a better life for your family
.. "
family ..
..
better life
..
heh
if my parents know i'm earning a shitload of money
my mother no need work le , she can jus gamble all day long le
then i will have to pay every single bill at home
then my father can go china more ..
he can get more women in his pt ..
well done
yep , that's exactly what i want
..
i dunno
i'm linking lame scenarios to actual church preachings
arr
fuck me
fuck off
..
the2nd topic
is
myself
why am i the person i am today
all i'm doing
chasing you
doing things for you
it's something i shouldn't be doing ar ..
i did something wrong in the past
i should be made to pay for it
i should be nice nice to everyone around me
or i should be very cold to everyone
so that no one will come near me
and get to know a person like me
right now
i'm nice to no one
you ?
being nice to you comes naturally
not much effort/thinking required
it's a habit le
whereas
i'm jus cold to everyone else
i'm fucking jw so often nowadays
for the mistakes he has done
i dunno who gave me the right to fuck him
to be such a mother fucker
pain in the ass
but lol
i'm in a bad mood
oh ya
i will auto get into a bad mood when Arsenal loses
which was what happened yesterday night
not that you care
not that it matters
lol
haiz
i'll start changing ba
see who wants to be my friend
you jia you jia you with your life too
maple jia you
work jia you
all the best
