random thoughts of life

Sunday, November 05, 2006

sim card broke (lost all my contacts .. .. .. T_T )
my only laptop (i have no desktops.. and .. servers .. =p) at home sort of broke down ..

more than 1 week never use phone le ..
no .. i didn't block you on MSN ..
no .. i'm not avoiding you, i will never do that ..
yes .. i am checking my gmail every chance i get .. you don't email me though ..

dun know if i should tell you what's above or not ..
i think your life will be better without me bugging you ..
external HD still with you
one of my main past times is anime ..
now .. that hobby is currently declared dead ..
lol

i jus dreamt that i forgot your hp number
i felt like crying
i don't wan to forget you
really ..

in army 6 months and 28 days le ..

1 year 3 days and 2 days to ORD ..
lol ..

exercise cr0codile next week, how ..
3/4 of right thumb exposed .. how to carry OBM .. ??
>.<
: (
haiz .. nvm.. must try ..

my platoon messed up exercise p4nther last week .. lol ..

my sim card is under my father's name ..
arr
i will get a new one this coming weekend ..
i wonder if you msged me ..
or gave me any missed calls ..
i ..
think ..
not ..
ba ..

i'm prepared for that ..
for the fact that you will leave me alone
to slowly die
by myself
it's ok
i deserve it

^_^

have u ever wondered
what will happen to a guy
who cannot be more lonely
who cannot be more sad
who thinks of suicide every breathing moment .. ..

¶ 8:50 PM

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if my life is meant to be this screwed up .. why do i exist then

Ж 7th.the0ry Ж
Ж male Ж
Ж b+ Ж
Ж free-thinker Ж
Ж 172cm Ж
Ж 59kg Ж

Ж Application Consultant Ж
Ж 35th singapore combat engineers (bridging) Ж
Ж boatman Ж
Ж ORD 060208 Ж

Ж flawed Ж
Ж cynical Ж
Ж hypocritical Ж
Ж extreme self hatred Ж
Ж liar Ж
Ж indecisive most of the time Ж
Ж is a mother flower Ж

wish list
---------
- money
- general fitness
- travel the world
- someone to love

a normal family
~~-my diploma~~
-ORD !!!
-part time job
-no more injuries
-caffeine addiction to be cured (this is going to be damn hard..)
~~coke is my poison, why should i cure it? what am i thinking ..

-class 2b license
-honda SP-150 (FY Plate preferred, 2nd hand, stock colour)
~~-won't tio guards in army~~
~~got posted to combat engineers

-t shirts with funny messages
-black formal suit with pants
-black plain button shirts
-new jeans
-new boxers !!!
~~-leg weights~~
~~run can liao
~~-wrist guards~~
~~-knee guards~~
~~-silver for NAFPA~~
~~-MotoRawR V3 Black~~
~~~~has access to a MotoRawR V3i now~~
~~using iphone 3GS now, i dun even like it, bleh

-new desktop/laptop ?
.P4 duo-core 3.2ghz
.2gb RAM
.any mid range PCI-E card will do
~~.750 gig HD !~~
~~1 TB HD
.router ..
~~-everyone to complete their FYP/IPP/Academic semester smoothly~~
-people around me to feel be happy.. ^^

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