i'm not out to make you my girlfriend

i jus don't want to be another person that you have to entertain..
i want to help you with anything that you may need help with..
i want to make you smile
make you laugh
make you happy..

and if i say that i will not expect anything from you
i would be lying
but i honestly do not want you to be with me..
weird right
but there're 2 reasons

- you will not be able to accept my past, most ppl won't
- i will not make a good boyfriend, companion, etc.
i will only hurt ppl close to me

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..




you told me that you wanted to be alone
you didn't want to handle anyone

but
i jus want to know .. you..
your character and everything about you ..
will you help me.. ?






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went jogging down the usualy route to lorong 8 jus now
singapore seemed so beautiful ..
now i know why there're guys who sign up for SAF already..

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they always say
"be happy with what you have"
..
but do you say that to the people who train very hard?
who work very hard?

i don't believe that those people are happy with what they have.. or they won't put in so much effort already..
"I hate my body
I hate my body"
..
ditto for the employee who puts in everything he/she has..
..

food for thought, for myself
.



hungry
hahaha

i think she sleeping already ba..

today watch channel 8..
the 9pm show
..
love gatekeepers or something.. lol ~ !

there's a girl ..
in the serial
who loved this guy (some chao ah beng) so much
she seems too perfect..
such a unrealistic character
but i see myself in her..
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without strength and money and power,
a guy is nothing..

without kindness and the willingness to make a girl feel loved, to make the girl feel like she's the most single important person in his life,
that guy is the worst type of human to walk the face of this earth..




somewhere
there's someone
who dreams of ur smile
and finds that, in ur presence
life is worthwhile..

i will not be with you
but i hope you will be happy
God bless you  ¶ 11:58 PM