random thoughts of life

Sunday, October 10, 2004

i'm very confused now ..
i'm afraid to fall in luv with her
but at the same time, i *do* want to care for her, luv her ..

then jus read in her blog that she wants exactly the opposite ..
oh well .. the last thing that i wan to do is to rush into another relationship .. again ..

haha, so .. ya, friends first .. =) ..
God bless herr ..

ahhh, i'm such a fucked up guy ..
forget it ..

all i wan to do for her now, is to help her for her modules ..
haiz .. today see her so poor thing ..

then after giving it some thought, she seemed dis-interested and irritated when i was sharing my experiences ..

same as for her bf .. haha, jus as well .. let the boat be naturally straight when it hits the head of the bridge .. hahaha

i tink i'll jus be one of those who will care for her and be there for her till .. no promises .. but i definitely won't confess out right, never again .. never ..

but hmm.. i wonder if i'm making it obvious .. hope not .. waiting for her for .. 2, near 3 hours is normal, rite ?

or maybe she realli is that blur .. ^_^ .. hahaha .. =)
cos .. if she's not that blur .. then she's giving me a chance ? o.O

lol, oh well .. being there for her is what i wan to dooo .. God help meeeeee
-7theory-

¶ 11:04 PM

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- general fitness
- travel the world
- someone to love

a normal family
~~-my diploma~~
-ORD !!!
-part time job
-no more injuries
-caffeine addiction to be cured (this is going to be damn hard..)
~~coke is my poison, why should i cure it? what am i thinking ..

-class 2b license
-honda SP-150 (FY Plate preferred, 2nd hand, stock colour)
~~-won't tio guards in army~~
~~got posted to combat engineers

-t shirts with funny messages
-black formal suit with pants
-black plain button shirts
-new jeans
-new boxers !!!
~~-leg weights~~
~~run can liao
~~-wrist guards~~
~~-knee guards~~
~~-silver for NAFPA~~
~~-MotoRawR V3 Black~~
~~~~has access to a MotoRawR V3i now~~
~~using iphone 3GS now, i dun even like it, bleh

-new desktop/laptop ?
.P4 duo-core 3.2ghz
.2gb RAM
.any mid range PCI-E card will do
~~.750 gig HD !~~
~~1 TB HD
.router ..
~~-everyone to complete their FYP/IPP/Academic semester smoothly~~
-people around me to feel be happy.. ^^

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