random thoughts of life

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

my life's a joke
i was veri unsociable when i was young
ya, even in kindergarden i kept away from the other kids

but the teachers there didn't realli care
they were busy trying to slack and earn their pay cheques

in sec school i was pretty much the same
u don't talk to me
i couldn't care less about u

unless i needed ur help or something like that, of course

but i joined BB .. had this bunch of friends to "hang out" with
and the more i learnt about other guys (and eventually girls)
the more i realised that ..

argh, i don't know how to express myself in words

my childhood's pretty screwed up

in secondary school i would fall in luv with girls here and there

and i actually hurt a girl .. emotionally ... in sec 3 ..
i realli feel like a idiot now ..

but .. wtf .. i jus told her frds that i'm her bf .. .. ..

-.-""

ar well ..

for most of my frds
when shit happens, i'll try my best to help them
i will hear how their parents help them to fix it up

for me ..
i pretty much depend on myself
if i rack up huge debts
my father will pay

then i'll have to pay him back
i have to pay him back all the money that he's spent on me, mind u

he said that to my face .. and i tink he's counting or something ..

tomorrow's the start of the orientation planning ..
bbl

have to go help kexin .. another girl that i have a crush on .. =p

¶ 12:13 AM

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wish list
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- money
- general fitness
- travel the world
- someone to love

a normal family
~~-my diploma~~
-ORD !!!
-part time job
-no more injuries
-caffeine addiction to be cured (this is going to be damn hard..)
~~coke is my poison, why should i cure it? what am i thinking ..

-class 2b license
-honda SP-150 (FY Plate preferred, 2nd hand, stock colour)
~~-won't tio guards in army~~
~~got posted to combat engineers

-t shirts with funny messages
-black formal suit with pants
-black plain button shirts
-new jeans
-new boxers !!!
~~-leg weights~~
~~run can liao
~~-wrist guards~~
~~-knee guards~~
~~-silver for NAFPA~~
~~-MotoRawR V3 Black~~
~~~~has access to a MotoRawR V3i now~~
~~using iphone 3GS now, i dun even like it, bleh

-new desktop/laptop ?
.P4 duo-core 3.2ghz
.2gb RAM
.any mid range PCI-E card will do
~~.750 gig HD !~~
~~1 TB HD
.router ..
~~-everyone to complete their FYP/IPP/Academic semester smoothly~~
-people around me to feel be happy.. ^^

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